Goldfish Memory

I can't remember much about last night

Just fuzzy impressions awash in pulsating club lights

Most of the things I recall, I regret

Keep wondering when I'm gonna learn but clearly not yet

Quite a few of my evenings fail to imprint on my mind

Goldfish memory, drinking to forget and leave the past behind.

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I made a promise, I didn't keep it - guess I forgot all about it

I know I hurt you, I didn't mean to

Wish I could go back and start it all anew

I can't keep going round in circles like this

On my way to spiralling the drain.

I know I let you down, I regret it

There's nothing in your eyes now but disdain.

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All I know is I wish I could start over

Were it only possible that I could hit reset

And I realize by now I should be wiser and older

But I keep fucking things up

I'm just not there yet

Here inside this goldfish bowl

Seeing a world through distorted glass

Goldfish memory, make the same mistakes to forget the past.

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I made a promise, I wanna mend it - I want to keep it this time

I know I hurt you, I didn't mean to

Wish I could go back and start it all anew

I can't keep going round in circles like this

Go on spiralling toward the drain

Don't wanna let you down, I wanna stop this

But all I only ever bring to you is pain.