Shaking Hands

Saw you in the park as it was getting dark

And your shadows were beginning to loom so large

Waiting on a killer, waiting for the exchange 

You said you weren’t going out tonight

But you gave up, you ran out of fight

And you’re right back where you started

In a vicious cycle, soul subsumed

I forgive you, you know

I know you lied, but I always let it go

Because I love you

You know I love you

If you’re gonna go around shaking hands

I’d rather you just fucking tell me

I don't like to be deceived

You don’t have to lie to me

You returned from the grind as someone else

A stranger in your skin, a shadow of yourself

You took on the pallor, you were beginning to fade

Sweating in our bed, wishing you were dead

Until it grew so unsustainable you had to relent

And you’re right back where you started

The circle encompasses and swallows you whole

I forgive you, that much is true

I know you tried, but you couldn’t see it through

But I still love you

You know I love you

If you’re gonna wake up with shaking hands

I’d still rather you wake up beside me

Even if it’s hard to see

Even if it hurts to see

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Saw you in the park as it was getting dark

And your shadows were beginning to loom so large

Waiting on a killer, waiting for the exchange 

You said you wouldn't go out tonight

But you gave up, you ran out of fight

And you’re right back where you started

In a vicious cycle, your soul subsumed

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I would fix you if I could

I’d exchange places if I thought it would

Possibly save you

You know I’d spare you

Now I’m terrified fumbling with my trembling hands

Tryin' to put you back together

But it’s so much bigger than me

And now I see

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If you’re thinking it’s time to give up the ghost

I wish that you would just fucking warn me

You used to confide in me

You don’t have to hide it from me.