When You Were Happy

That summer we escaped from all the stress found on the road

Took a trip up to some place where we both were no one

In that silent nowhere perched upon the water we found peace

Where the stillness was so deafening after months of endless noise

And we did a lot of nothing, it was better than anything

It was the last time we’d have the luxury, but neither of us knew that at the time

The sun sparkled across the lake then and it shimmered in your eyes

You leaned back, gazed at the sky and promised we would be forever

Just as a dragonfly darted over your shoulder, then across the water

And you grinned just like you meant it.

I remember how your crooked smile would split your face,

Your eyes pinched tight with joy

Whenever you were happy by my side

I was yours, you were mine,

Those were simpler times and I cannot forget you,

I wouldn’t want to try.

It’s hard to believe that that was five years ago today,

Another world before the skies began to darken

I’d do anything to return to that place where we found peace

Where the stillness is still deafening, but it can’t put my mind at ease

I wish I’d done a lot more than nothing, but I chose not to do anything

If I knew what I know now I’d have held you much more tightly,

That’s the thing about hindsight being 20/20.

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The sun sparkles on the water still but it never lights my way

Alone, I gaze upon the sky but it’s forever cold and grey